Not Enough

My praises to you, God seem weak
It is your pleasure that I seek.
My sole desire is your praises to ring-
all I ever really want to do is sing, sing sing.

I feel like sung praises saturate the air,
an intimate act, meant only for a pair
The Bride of Christ, and my awaiting groom.
woven together, as on a loom.

My spoken prayers seem Oh, so trite-
but sung praises set my Living Soul to flight!
The times I spend in song with Jesus allow me to feel his sheer delight.

On The Occasion of the Adoption of William Richard and Katherine Rosemary McKeithan

To my dears, Will and Katherine-
One day, you will read this.  there are some things I want you to know.
I love you.  Not only do I "just" love you, but I am absolutely, undeniably, wholeheartedly hopelessly IN LOVE with you.  I love every single thing about you.  I love the way the feel of your skin lingers on the tips of my fingers.  I love watching you sleep and seeing the truest and purest of you while you dram.  I love seeing your legs stick out of the covers.
Will, I love how your hair gets bushy when you haven't had a hair cut, just like your dad.
Katherine, I love that you love clothes and shoes, just like me.
Will, I love that you are the protector- always watching out for your sister, and for me.  You are going to grow up to be a FINE gentleman!
Katherine- I love that you are always eager to teach someone.  You are patient and encouraging.

We have talked several times about how we came to be a family.  I want you to know that I TRULY believe in my heart we are meant to be together.  I know you must feel at times like you were abandoned.  I know you heard that word in court today, and I know it bothered you.  Sweethearts, dear ones, you were NOT abandoned.  The Lord had Shelley play a very special part in your lives.  HE put each of you into her womb to carry you, because HE knew I could not carry you in mine.  Just as God had a special plan for you, He had a special plan for Shelley.  Never speak poorly of her.  God fulfilled his purpose in her.  You have heard me say many times that we were meant to be together, it just took us a little while to get together.  It's true.
I think that's all I had to say.  I want to leave you with lyrics to a special song.  It's called The Letter and it's written and sung by Steve Green.


My child, I pray you’ll listen to a thing I must confess, you’ve been a treasure buried deep within my busyness. You were not born into this world to live an orphan’s life, and by God’s grace I long to make it right.
CHORUS
Your life’s a living letter that’s a sacred certainty. A poem of perfect praise, that’s what I hope you will be. It’s all you were and all you are and all you’ll ever be. Your life’s a letter written there by me. (Your life’s a letter written there by me.
Day by day I write across the pages of your life some sentences of kindness and some paragraph of light. May they be words of love and words of hope not words of dark despair, for on your soul the world will read them there.

More Mouths Of Babes

Oh, the things kids say...
Last night, as K was choosing her ice cream flavor, she told her daddy she like "Moose Crack".  Now, I'm not sure if she's talking about the addictive powers of chocolate and peanut butter cups, or..... maybe we'll never know!
We have been discussing the weather a lot, with the arrival of Hurricane Irene.  We've talked about how hurricanes spawn tornadoes.  Will informs us that although hurricane winds will knock you down, tornadoes will "KNOCK YOU UP"!
Oh my, what am I going to to with these two?  They definitely bring a lot of laughter into our lives!

A Better Day

Today was a much better day.  I didn't lose my cool  I stayed calm.  I handled things as they came.  Thank you to all who prayed.  I appreciate it more than you will ever know!

Why Does Satan Attack On Wednesday?

Wednesday.  Hump Day.  Middle of the week.  Fall church activities start soon.  At work, it's Cheesy Bacon Burger Day.  Who could have a bad day on CBB day?
Apparently I can.
Why does Satan seem to start hurl his darts my way on Wednesday?
Why do my children choose Wednesday to irk my nerves?
Tonight I feel like a failure of a mother.  I do.
I got into a power struggle with my dear daughter, and she  won!
I totally flew off the handle.
Sometimes I wonder if the reason we were childless for so long is because God knew I'd be a horrible mother?  Maybe I'm not meant to handle this.
So frustrating...
hopefully Thursday will be better...

Saturday At Last!

I am pleased to announce that the Fabulous McKFour is having a wonderfully lazy Saturday!  We have been going and going and going non stop, and now, it's time for a little "at home" time.  Well, we do have to run out to finish school supply shopping (UGH- I dread doing this on Tax Free weekend, but hey, a girl's gotta get a deal!) and some other putzing around, but otherwise, we have an unscheduled, unencumbered, unplanned day!  It's about time!

The Funny Things Kids Say

I am trying to be better about writing down the things the kids say that take me by surprise.  The other night, I was helping Katherine wash her hair.  Now, this girl is quite capable of taking her own shower and washing her own hair, but she claims that since it's gotten so long, she needed help.  I think she just wanted to extra attention, and that's all right too:).  As we got to work on her hair, Katherine said, "Mom, I wish you could go get on your bathing suit and get in with me".  when I informed her that we would not be using the tub and shower long enough to make that happen, she said, "Mom, when you get to be an old lady, and can't lift your arms above your head, I'm going to come over and give you a bath and wash your hair for you".  Obviously touched, I said, "You would do that for me?".  Katherine replied, "Yep, and I won't even let the boys in, since you won't have your bathing suit on and all..."!  I still think it's the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me!  

Retreat

Tomorrow I'm leaving my children for the first time since we've been together.  I'm going to Ridgecrest for our churches women's retreat.  While I'm excited to be going, I'm a little sad to be losing time with the family.  My goals for the retreat are: 1) grow closer to God, 2) grow closer to the ladies who are going, and 3) spend some serious personal quality time with the Lord.  Hopefully the next entry will be full of wonderful reports and fun pictures!
See you when I get back!

MINE

I love being called "Momma" instead of "Aunt Sonia".  I love that kisses on the lips and back rubs are appropriate.  I love not having to love my children like i have to love my  nephews, niece and Godchildren from a respectable distance, reserving their very best love for their parents.I love the difference of a mother child relationship versus an aunt nephew niece relationship.    I love that I am the giver and recipient of that "very best love", or as Katherine would say, that "very big love".  Although my babies have "belonged" to many, I love that they first belong to God, and that He has chosen me.  I get to be their momma, and Randy gets to be their daddy.  We get their "very biggest love", and I just love that.